Keepers of the Light

Happy 11-11!  This is a very significant number in numerology as every number holds a unique vibration.  The 1's hold the vibration of spiritual awakening and creation.  Out with the old and in with the new, and today happens to be a new moon.  The essence of new beginnings.  So it only seems natural that spirit would speak strongly in meditation today and ask for me to share a message to the light keepers.  Yes you are usually called light workers but I have been asked to replace the term "workers" with "keepers,"  There really is no work in being a keeper of the light.  We hold the sacred light within us....all of us do and the "work" is often what keeps us in hiding.  The light is effortless and free flowing because that is our true being.  We are holding the sacred frequency for those who have not yet awakened.  So....here it is, a message to the beautiful, sacred, courageous keepers of the light. 

When I began this work, I was a self-proclaimed (begrudgingly labeled) "medium."  I was truly never comfortable with the term, in fact it always felt wrong.  I just didn't know what to call this strange phenomenon that I was experiencing.  I was just moving along in my normal chaos when all of the sudden, in a traffic jam on the freeway, my heart was stirred.  My awakening really began in 2007 in the midst of a painful divorce.  I was the epitome of victim.  "How could this be happening?  Why would he choose to leave me?  And all the other expressions of my "NOT ENOUGHS."  Thankfully I was lead to a counselor who introduced me to the movie "The Secret."  The awareness that I, in fact, had created and even asked for this experience, was life changing. 

I practiced that awareness for a while and really began to understand that it was okay to hope and it was okay to dream.  I started to really come alive.  Then one day, stuck on I-15 for two hours, my world was completely awakened while listening to the "The Power Of Intention," by Dr. Wayne Dyer.  My heart began to expand and I felt a rush of excitement.  A peaceful passion washed over me and I distinctly, quietly heard a voice say, "You will teach these things as he is."  I had always loved and admired Wayne Dyer's work but to even think for a moment that I would be teaching as he is was absurd to me.  I was single, broke, crazy busy, and burned out!  I had nothing to teach.  I had everything to learn and that is where my journey began. 

I didn't really have any experience to compare this to and nobody that I knew that was experiencing this feeling.  The only thing I knew to do was to take it to God.  The most precious gift I had received through my divorce was a relationship with my divine creator.  I am in gratitude every day for that.  I began meditating in my closet.  In complete darkness and stillness I began to find the light...I began to see my light.  It didn't look like anything I had ever seen before in myself but this felt like truth.  It felt like the me that I came into this world as, the playful, fearless, curious me that knew that I was the essence of God. The voice that I began to hear was very subtle at first but she kept talking and gently reminding me to meet her in the stillness.  I did, every day.  My world began to change almost faster then I could keep up with.  It was like the most delicious food I had ever tasted and I just could not get enough.  I meditated longer and with more intention.  My prayer was always just to connect, just to receive messages from those of the highest light and more than anything I asked, "Please let me be an instrument.  Please just put me where you need me." 

One day as I was in meditation, I felt very strongly, the presence of my grandpa sitting next to me.  I immediately recognized him and thought, "Grandpa I am so glad you are here."  To my surprise, he talked back, not with his mouth but with his soul.  Loud and clear, my soul recognized his words.  I wept with gratitude the whole time.  The portal opened that day and has never closed.  Once I remembered that I was inherently connected to all things, including the other side, it could not be shut off.  What a beautiful gift this was to open and I am so very grateful. 

Do you remember this connection?  You all have it, you all are it!  The last five years have brought blessing after blessing because of this remembrance.  I want more than anything to awaken that remembrance in everyone I meet! 

So, back to the term medium.  I am not a medium because that would be limiting to conversations with non-physical beings that have passed ... and although that is often part of the healing, that is not the sole purpose.  I am a messenger, a conduit to share the messages to awaken a remembrance in you.  That is it.  I am no longer able to answer questions for people.  They must now be active participants in their own healing. We are no longer able to look to others for answers.  We are no longer able to depend on someone outside of ourselves to direct our path.  We as light keepers can hold a vibrational frequency with another to help them remember but we can not do any healing for them!  I am now asked to have my clients speak about their emotions, ask questions, and open the door of connection for themselves as I serve as the mouthpiece.  YOU ARE the HEALER.  Your connection with your divine light is the perfect frequency to heal your pain.  We are instructed to gather together and hold that frequency for those who are healing but to create dependence in anyway is not in the highest light. 

I recently met with a beautiful young woman who was just starting into this awakening process.  She had been through some painful experiences which often proceeds an awakening.  She said that she had been seeing a healer who would just "rewire" her over the phone about once a month.  She would tune into her needs and just heal her.  This girl loved her because it was easy and she was told that she would feel better so she just did, temporarily.  And then she would give her a credit card and set up her appointment for the next month.  I was in awe....complete shock at the realization that this is happening all over.  I was told in a workshop with a native American grandmother this past weekend that "The Sorcerers" are ramping up. 

The darkness is control.  The darkness is taking away free will.  The darkness takes without giving.  The light heals in equal balance.  Something is given to receive, this is the reason most healers ask for an exchange of money, it is an important part of your healing.  If you give your heart felt intention, your tears of emotion, or your willingness to let go of and understand an experience, you receive healing from the light.  The Lakota teachings state that "Only with the juices of the body can the spirit and flesh become one."  Only through "blood, sweat, and tears."  If you are not an active participant in your healing you are taking a short cut and you will miss all of the beautiful lessons you designed in that experience.  It creates connection to a healer, not connection to yourself and the oneness you hold with creator.  It creates dependence.  It creates addiction and you will be constantly be in search for peace if you feel that connection has been lost.  Please trust that you hold all the answers within.  Often in the beginning of our journey we need a mentor and that is great but take everything you learn to your source.  Question everything and find YOUR answers.  That is the most honoring gift you can ever give to yourself. 

It is time to gather our medicine.  It is time to accept the call and do whatever it takes to share that light you remember.  We don't have time to keep going back into victimhood or question your worthiness.  If you feel your heart stirring, you are called.  The first wave of ascension has already taken place and one-third of the planet is awakening.  The other two-thirds will awaken in time but we have the honor and responsibility to facilitate our healing and step into our divine uniqueness.  Your gifts are yours and are an intricate piece of the fabric we are weaving together.  We are all needed.  We are all special, and we are all part of this infinite creation of divine love.  Do you remember?  Ask yourself that question....ask to remember! 

You are so loved.  You are so supported.  You are being guided.  Please stay in faith and know that everything you need will show up in your experience.  Surrender the attachment to what it has to look like.  Surrender your will and just be the perfect instrument of light you already are! 

I am honored to be a part of this awakening and I give my heart-felt gratitude to my teachers, to those who have gone before and have walked beside me every moment.  I thank you.  I thank my divine creator for reflecting the experiences I needed to remember and may I continue to be humble in understanding your will not mine.  May I be an instrument of connection, an instrument of reflection and an instrument of remembrance in the words you speak through me.  Thank you to the beautiful healers, teachers, givers, and friends.  Together we can change the world. 
Lots of love to you all!