Do Those Who Commit Suicide Go to "Hell?"

With all the recent discussion about suicide and the passing of Robin Williams, I felt inspired to write about my experiences with suicide in my work with the souls who have actually passed in this way.

This is a difficult subject to write about and is always a tender experience when I work with families who have endured this loss.  The emotions that they are left to sort through is layered so incredibly deep.  They not only have the loss to deal with but also the questions of why, and almost always, a tremendous amount of guilt.  "If I could have only done more."

I can usually tell right away when I feel a soul who has passed in this way because they often feel very "heavy."  They usually are hesitant in coming forward or they are assisted to come forward by someone on the other side who is full of light.  The other way that I often feel them, is very relieved.  They usually say to me right off, "I have finally found peace."  Those who have peace say that they have become one with God.  Many times I sense them as very old wise spirits who came to bring light to the earth but were unable to feel like they were at home here in this dense energy on earth.  They tell me all the time, "I was so homesick."  I have come to believe that we arrange pre-soul contracts.  We decided what lessons we would like to learn and what people we would like to have in our lives to help us experience those lessons.  Sometimes souls agree to take very intense, hard contracts so that they can evolve more rapidly.  Many times, these people are the "shock absorbers" of the world and come with the most tender of hearts, agreeing to carry the burdens of others to bring love to the earth.  I believe this is what Robin Williams was.  Someone who gave light to all and absorbed the pain around him. 

So here lies the question, "Do those who commit suicide go to hell?"  My first response to this is that I no longer believe that hell is actually a place.  I feel it is a state of being and we all experience our own hell in our own way.  In some cases I do believe that those who have ended their lives are in their own hell.  I am convinced though that this state of being is not from an angry God who wants to punish them for their actions.  I feel that it comes from the self-judgement that they are facing in making that decision, and the fact that they are eternally connected to those loved ones who are left.  They heal together and they feel each others emotions because they are energetically one.  We are all connected but those who are family will feel it more intensely. Many times these souls will take the opportunity in our sessions to help their loved ones understand why they made that decision and why it was not the responsibility of others to fix it.  They will also, almost always, plead for forgiveness.

I did a session for a mother a while back in which her young teenage daughter committed suicide unexpectedly.  It absolutely destroyed her mother almost to the point that she wanted to do the same thing.  I felt her daughter so very close in our session.  She was holding hands with her mom and said that she was going through every single emotion with her.  She felt her pain, she cried her tears, and she loved her in a deeper way then she ever felt was possible in her physical life.  She said, "Mom, no pressure, no hurry, but I can't heal unless you do."  We are in this together.  I then did a session for her dad a few years later, and not knowing until after that this was the same soul, she said the same thing.  She was feeling all the emotions that her dad was experiencing as well.

I have also had a few experiences where I felt the soul, on the other side, very heavy and feeling "lost."  One in particular, was a session where I felt a young man come forward.  He felt like he was wandering, just walking back and forth with his hands in his pocket like he was unaware of where he was but also feeling alone and sad.  My client said that he had a friend who had taken his own life and that he had been feeling his presence around him almost everyday.

I have come to learn that their are "lost souls" on the other side just like here in the physical world.  They seem to be very attached to people here on earth and try to draw energy from us in our physical form.  I believe that when people see ghosts, they are often seeing earth bound souls.  I believe that they are often "asleep" and unaware that there is a higher light that can help them heal and be whole again.

In this session with this young man,  I asked my client if he wanted to help this soul to feel love again and to be able to experience the light so that he could make the choice to surrender to that higher light.  I asked him to focus as much love and light to his friend to to send prayers for any "light" souls from the other side to help this young man feel the healing love of God.  We were both silently praying when I felt another young man walk forward and stand next to this young man.  He was also a friend of my clients and a friend of the lost young man.  He had passed in his early 20's of an aneurysm and was such a great guy.  He took the young man by the hand and asked him to go with him.  The young man agreed.  Instantly I could feel a sense of peace and surrender from this young man.  He was suddenly surrounded by light and love and I saw a "blanket of peace" being wrapped around him by the Savior.   This was such a beautiful experience and my client was very emotional.  It also taught us both, the power that we have in helping to heal each other, even those on the other side.  It is all about LOVE.  Sometimes we forget our own light and we feel lost.  Many times we find our way again through others who are shining their light. 

I recently had a session with a family member of a sweet lady who had taken her own life very unexpectedly.  She came forward so strong and her presence filled the entire room.  She said, she had finally found peace.  She also said that her mission on earth was to bring  a higher level of love to the earth and to raise vibrations for all around her.  She had suffered from a chemical depression but also shared that she had carried a very big "pack" behind her.  She showed me a picture of picking up stones.  Each stone had a label on it.  She showed me ones that said, I am dumb, I am too fat, I am not capable.  They were all symbolic of very destructive thoughts.  She then showed  me all the stones she had picked up for everyone else.  She said that the pack became so heavy, the only way she knew to take it off was to cut it off.  She said that she could see from a higher perspective now and see that she could have released them along the way and not had to endure so much pain.  She also said that she had paid her dues on earth and that she finally understood how much God really loved her and understood her pain.  She felt very desperate to help her other family members who also suffered from depression to look at other ways to release the "stones."  She had, in her desperate decision, changed the course of her family's life forever.  They now understood the seriousness of this disease and were willing to do whatever it took to heal this for generations past and generations to come.  The chain was being broken! 

I hope this sheds some light on suicide and I hope to impress upon all of you who read this, you can make a difference in this world and the other.  Send your healing light and love to all around you and all who are in need of healing on the other side.  We are in this together!  I believe that God is merciful and and no soul is truly ever lost. My most sincere prayers go out to those who are left here to grieve and ask why....I pray you are able experience the depth of love and understanding that God wants to give you and can find the courage to surrender to the understanding that there is always a way back home. 

"The Red Rose"

I really had a hard time deciding which story to write this week.  There are always so many inspirational messages to choose from.  I really pray about it and ask to choose a message that will benefit the most readers.  As I was contemplating this, I came across a picture that interestingly enough, I had seen exactly in a session I was doing for a man who was struggling with relationship problems...so there was my answer.  Hope you enjoy!!

He came to me with such a positive attitude and a sincere desire to improve the relationship he had been in for over 7 years.  He was a very ambitious, driven man and is very successful in the world of politics.  He felt that the government could be run honestly and justly and that he could make a real difference for the people he served.  He and his wife had experienced many ups and downs and had three beautiful children.  He expressed how much he loved his wife and that his family was his everything.  He had grown up without a father in his home and he was determined that his children would not experience the same thing.  He said that when he was dating, he met so many positive, amazing people and he carefully chose the woman he married.  He stated that although he loved her, she was not the woman he married.  She was often sad, insecure and negative.  He felt very frustrated about this.  He said that he was constantly trying to build her up and encourage her to keep her thoughts positive.  He said that she often felt like she didn't even know who she was anymore.  He said, "Did I make the right choice in choosing her?"

First of all I feel that we are always exactly where we need to be to learn the lessons and have the experiences we asked to have.  Sometimes I think we take the "long road" to learn what we need to when the spiritual path will always get us where we need to be quicker.  But, we asked for experiences here in the physical world and that is what we are receiving.  

I invited anyone who would like to assist this man in his question and immediately I saw a picture of a field of white roses.  In the middle of the roses was one red rose that was taller and more beautiful then the rest.  It obviously stood out.  I saw an image of him walking over to the red rose and admiring it for a while.  He smelled it and finally decided to pick it.  I then saw him walking down a path carrying that red rose.  He held it close to him and never set it down.  I then noticed that the further down the path he got, the flower started to wilt.  I saw him trying to hold the rose more upright and keep the stem strong but the longer he held the rose, the more wilted and discolored it became.  

The message came to me as I explained this picture to him, that he obviously noticed her beauty and was attracted to her in the beginning.  She stood out taller and more vibrant then the rest.  That is why he chose her.  But somewhere in that journey she had allowed herself to be removed from the "nourishing soil" or source that she grew so beautifully in before.  She had become an attachment of him and her children and was no longer growing emotionally and spiritually like she had before.  He, being the fixer, thought that if he could just encourage her enough or hold her up tall enough, she would feel like the beautiful rose she once was.   He was so frustrated that she could not see this and even more upset that he couldn't make her see it.  

The message came to me...."You have to plant her back in the soil."  "You have to set her down and allow her to walk her own path.  You can give her love and "sunlight, you can shower her with compliments but as long as she is removed from the source, her center, her connection with her own divinity, she will continue to wilt."  He said, I don't know how.  I said, "You will.   Pray about what SHE needs to be able to grow.  Also, she can energetically feel when you are frustrated with her which feeds her already lacking self-esteem.  Tell her she is capable, encourage her to have "her" time.  Compliment who she is not just what she looks like or what she does for you.  Help her remember what she felt like when she was the beautiful, confident, healthy red rose." 

I feel like this is a message that comes up often, especially for women.  It is so important that we stay connected to our source and allow ourselves time to just breath throughout the day.  The gathering of our energy comes back to us in the quiet still moments when we are able to listen to a loving Father who wants nothing more then to remind us that we are the "RED ROSE."

"I've Waited 17 Years To Know My Baby Is Ok"

I will give you fair warning...this one is a tear jerker!  I just loved this session!  I am grateful for the divine intervention that allowed this one to take place because this needed to happen. 

This was a recent session where two sisters and their mother came to see me.  It was really a matter of fate because I was completely booked and had someone reschedule just prior to this woman making an appointment.  I am learning that this work is so divinely orchestrated, I can only imagine all that is taking place on the other side, coordinating schedules and arranging meetings for everyone to receive the guidance and comfort they need.  It has to be a full time job!

We started our session and a few family members made their presence known.  They gave messages of healing and comfort.  Then a lady came forward, she was beautiful.  She felt very angelic and loving.  She gave me a feeling of such motherly nurturing.  I could feel her intense love for this family and her appreciation  the friendship they shared in the physical world.  She mentioned many of the funny things that they were able to do together in her life experience.  She had been a very close friend and was taken from this world unexpectedly.  She left a husband and children behind which she made it known, had been very hard on her.  She spoke of her family and pointed out all of the interactions and guidance she was still able to give them.  She then started talking specifically to one of the sisters in our session.  Her name was Jana.

She directed her energy at Jana and showed me that she was holding a little boy.  He appeared to be about 3 years old.  His name was Colten.  He was absolutely beautiful and very much a lively little boy.  She then showed me a picture of him sitting down on a seat and she was putting his little shoes on his wiggly feet.  He was having a hard time sitting still and this woman was gently putting on his socks with a great big smile on her face.  She gave me the feeling of peace and appreciation in being able to do this for him.  I asked Jana what this meant and by this time she was sobbing.  She said, "That's my little boy.  He passed away 17 years ago when he was only 3 years old."  I then saw a picture of a car and angels lifting the car up,  I asked Jana if Colten was in a car accident.  She said, "Yes, his dad accidentally ran over him in the car.  Colten said, "Mom the angels lifted the car off of me, I didn't feel it."  He said, "I am safe, I made it home okay."  Jana was choking back her sobs, she said, "I'VE WAITED 17 YEARS TO KNOW MY BABY IS OK."    Then Colten said, "Please tell daddy I know that he didn't mean to, I try to tell him everyday.  Tell him that I know that he loves me."  Jana said that her husband had such a difficult time with this accident and would be so thankful to know that.  She also said that when her dear friend passed away she was so sad but she felt comforted in knowing that she would be able to help take care of her Colten.  Colten then talked about his siblings and knew each one of them and their personalities.  He made it very clear that he was aware of all that was going on in their family and did not want to miss a thing.  He also gave me a feeling that he was a very old, experienced soul but that he would, "be small" until his mother had the chance to experience raising him.

Jana asked if Colten was proud of what she had accomplished in her life since his passing.  He told me that she became a nurse after his passing.  He took a lot of credit for directing her and his aunt who was present also, in becoming nurses.  He gave me a feeling of he himself, having an interest in medical information and that he "whispered" the knowledge and the guidance that they needed to help take care of other people.  He told me that he was able to continue his light here on earth through them and that together they were making a difference for many people.  He talked about how much he loved his family and gave specific messages for his aunt and for his grandma in the session.  He said that he was free like a butterfly and was grateful to not be in a "cocoon" anymore.  He could explore and fly and more then anything, share his great big light without the confines of a body.  He was pure love and peace and filled the room with joy!

Jana, her sister, and their mother left saying that they felt so much comfort in knowing that Colten wasn't alone and that he did not suffer in his passing.  It was such an honor to meet with them and I pray the healing continues.  So many years had passed and I was impressed with way that all of them were able to face their grief and become better in their lives instead of bitter.  They wanted to make a difference in the name of Colten and they have!  So inspirational!  Thank you for letting me share your story!  You are amazing!