"You Are Still Carrying Me"

This was a story from a recent session in which a mother came to hear messages from her young son who had passed away approximately ten years ago after a two year battle with leukemia.  By the way, when people call to schedule a session, I  ask that I am only given the first name and no further information so that I am not swayed at all in my messages.

That being said, I was unaware that this mother had gone through this experience but this sweet little boy kept coming to me and showing me a picture of his mother carrying him in her arms.  He said that she had to carry him a lot when he was sick because he was very weak and was in so much pain.  He then said, "Mom you are still carrying me and I am able to walk now."  He also said, "I am so much heavier when you feel like you have to carry me, please set me down and I will stand up and walk with you.  Let me take you by the hand and walk."  I loved this beautiful message and his mother was very emotional.  She said that his passing had been so hard for her.  She felt like a part of her had died with her son.  He assured her that no matter what they would have done as far as treatment, the outcome would have been the same.  It was his time to go.  He thanked her for all the time she spent with him, loving and caring for him but he wanted her to know that he was still alive in spirit and was with her all the time.

He also said that he was happy about her decision in "giving something of his away."  He said that she was so unselfish in that choice. She smiled and said that made her happy.  She told me after the session that their family had been working really hard to raise money for him to have a bone marrow transplant.  They were unable to have this done before he passed away and so this amazing mother, without hesitation, gave all of the money they had earned to another family who was also awaiting transplant.

His messages for her were so beautiful and loving.  He told her that he had passed peacefully and just went to sleep.  He also told her that he was greeted by his grandfather and that he immediately recognized him.  He also said that when children pass, it is a special homecoming and that he was able to be with those that his mother had prayed to for help.  In his case he was with God, Jesus Christ, and the Mother Mary.  She said that she had asked that they take care of him.   This is so powerful, the prayer of a mother! 

Another interesting point in this session was that this mother did not speak any English but spoke Portuguese.  Her other son came with her to translate.  I didn't think about it until after but her father and mother both gave messages from the other side as well.  I realized after, that they spoke no English either in this lifetime.  Love is a universal language and the messages that I receive come as inspiration and impressions that I feel "heart to heart." It doesn't matter what language they speak or what differences they have, the messages come in a way that we can all  understand them.

People often ask me if I hear them with my ears and the answer is no.  I feel them in my soul.  We all do!  We all have those moments that we feel like we should call a friend or that we should give someone a message.  We are all 'Mediums" and are often being used as instruments of healing for each other.  The more we learn to recognize and act on these impressions, the more we will receive them.

I love teaching people to develop and trust their own intuition!  If you are interested in learning more about this, please private message me or call me at 801-910-7591.  I am passionate about this work and teaching others to embrace their own gifts!

Thank you my sweet new friends for letting me share your story and God bless you in your healing journey!

"My Grandpa Told Me To Hit the Deck"

One more post for Memorial Day!  This was from a recent session with a man who had served in the Army for over 20 years. 

His session had many parts that were amazing but one thing really impressed me and I appreciate him allowing me to share it. 

His grandfather came through and had been a very tough, stern, military man as well.  He said that he was so very proud of this young man and that he had followed in his family's footsteps and had served his country well.  He then said that there was a specific time that he saved this man's life.  He told him to "HIT THE DECK."   He also said that he had been worried about his grandson. 

Later that night,this man messaged me saying, "At one point last night you were talking about my grandfather and said that he had saved my life and that while he was alive, he was worried about me.  I knew what you were talking about with him saving me but I always thought that he hated me, so the worried thing confused me.  After talking to you, I called my mom and she said that the last thing he said before he died was that he was worried about me.  Him saving me in Iraq...I just had a feeling that I should hit the ground and I did.  If I would have ignored that feeling, I would be dead.  I always knew that it was my grandpa telling me to HIT THE DECK"

This man also told me that this particular message was what solidified for him that there actually was an afterlife.  I was so touched by this experience for so many reasons.  The healing power of love and family bonds do not severe at death.  This grandfather loved his grandson so much and even though it may have been hard for him to show it in this lifetime, he was able to in the next. 

Again, thank you for serving our country!  Thank you for putting yourself in harms way to keep us safe, and thank you to your sweet grandfather for helping you to be able to come back home. 

Another great big THANK YOU for letting me share your story!

"Thank You For Bringing My Dad Back Home"

This a post that is very near and dear to my heart.  It also just happened to come about today which is perfectly fitting for Memorial Day.  Therefore, I will be bombarding you all with my stories today but I feel impressed to get these written. 

Today I did a session for my younger brother.  It happens to be the first one I have ever done for him.  It's strange but it is harder for me to read people that I am close to.  It seems to work better with people that I know nothing about so that my thoughts are not swayed and I can depend entirely upon spirit.  But in spite of all that, this session was amazing and our ancestors came through loud and clear. 

He was getting a lot of messages that pertain to his path and opportunities that were coming his way.  It's interesting but almost everything that I said, he said that he had been thinking about.  He has very strong intuition and loved that he was validated on so many specific details. 

In the middle of this session, our great great grandfather came through on our dad's side.  I have never heard anything about him and sadly did not even know his name.  He assured us both that he had been in our lives and had served as a guide at times for all of us.  He then said that there was a very specific time that he was able to protect our dad when he was a Marine in Vietnam.  He showed me a picture of our dad being literally moved out of the way and would have been killed had he stayed. 

My brother went home and talked to our dad about it.  Dad got teary eyed and said that he knows exactly the moment that his great grandfather was talking about.  He said, "I was moved by some other force that was not my own and I knew that I was protected by a grandfather." 

Even as I write this, it makes me cry.  How do you ever thank an ancestor for that kind of love and protection.  Thank you Grandpa....THANK YOU FOR BRINGING MY DAD BACK HOME.

Thank you Daddy-o for your service and your bravery.  You are my hero and the very best man I know!  I love you!

"The Money Does Not Matter....It's All About Love"

This is going to be a little bit different type of post.  I have been getting this message frequently in sessions so I am going to share a few short stories and the messages that are behind them.  The first one was from a session with a lady recently.  Her dad had passed away a few years ago.

During our session, I kept seeing an image of a gold ring attached to a gold necklace.  I asked her about this and she pulled it out from under her shirt.  She said that it was her dad's ring and that she had been wearing it in memory of him.  She had been considering having it melted down into another item like a smaller ring so that she could wear it.  He immediately said, "Take it out and wear it!"  She said that she had considered giving it to a brother.  When she said that I saw an image of this brother putting it away and keeping it as a shrine for his dad.  Her father said that he did not want ANYTHING of his put "up on the shelf." (He was a little bit stern about this!)   He said, "In this world you think that you have to put everything up on a shelf and wait until the most convenient time to use it.  Perhaps when you retire or when you have a little more money in the bank.  The time is now!"  He told her, "Get out and enjoy life while your legs can still carry you!"  It was interesting that he chose those words because little did I know, she had been having a lot of pain in her legs.  It all made perfect sense to her and she said she was going to plan a trip when she got home! 

This sweet dad had also worked very hard in the physical world to provide and leave something for his children.  He had invested in the oil fields and the family was left with some residual earnings after his passing.  This daughter whom I was visiting with was the treasurer for the family and was in charge of dividing out that money.  This had been incredibly stressful for her.  It was not always a peaceful undertaking and she worried that her dad would be upset in how she had managed his assets.  He said to her, "THE MONEY DOES NOT MATTER.  IT'S ALL ABOUT LOVE."  He said that he had worked to hard to provide "LOVE" for his family and that money was just the expression of that.  He said that he was proud of her and to continue to follow her heart in making those financial decisions.  He said that he would direct her in those decisions and always had been.  She was grateful for that and said that she had really sensed him around her when she was having to do that.

The next story was for a woman in a session recently.  Her mother had passed away from cancer when she was only 9 years old.  This was, of course, so hard for a little girl to handle and she had missed her so much.  Her mother talked about things they had done and had such a funny sense of humor.  She had her daughter laughing and crying throughout the whole session.  Her daughter could recall all of those happy memories but she had one that she had felt a lot of guilt over and wanted to ask her mom about it.  She said that one Christmas, she had asked for a typewriter.  She told her mother that a typewriter was all that she wanted and she she didn't care if she got nothing else.  She said that apparently, her mother had looked and looked but was unable to find one.  She gave her other beautiful gifts but this woman, being a small girl, was heartbroken about not getting what she wanted.  She became very emotional in the session and said that she had said some terrible things and made her mom cry.  It was a huge source of guilt and something that she had held onto for all these years.  She asked, "Does my mom forgive me for that?"  Her mother immediately showed me a picture of her handing over a typewriter but this time, she pushed it out of the way and handed her a big box full of love.  She said that the typewriter was just a symbol of how much she loved her daughter and with or without the typewriter, the love was always there."  She said that we put so much emphasis on the physical manifestation of "love" and recognize it more when it's a tangible object.  "If we collect more things, then we must have more love."  She told her daughter how very much she loves her and that she can let go of what that typewriter symbolized but hang on to the fact that the love was given even though it was in a different form then she had asked for.  There was complete understanding and forgiveness.  Her mother asked that she please forgive herself as this was a very small part of what their relationship was. 

How many times do we get caught up in the "things" of this life when they are truly so temporary.  Recognize the message behind the objects and give gratitude for all of the manifestations of love in your life!  Being in the flow of abundance also means allowing that love be given to others and most of all to be enjoyed!  This life is to be experienced.  The memories and the relationships we build are the ONLY thing that lasts!   

Thank you to both of you for letting me share your stories.  Lots of love to both of you! 

"Build a Mansion With No Walls"

This was from a session I did recently with a sweet lady named Dianna.  Her mother had passed away within the last year and Dianna was really struggling with the pain of losing her but also the guilt of wondering if she had done enough to care for her.  There were a few messages in this session that I wanted to share because they were really enlightening and brought some comfort to Dianna.  Hopefully they will answer some questions many of you have.

Diana's mother had suffered with Alzheimer's in the later years of her life and was unable to go to her church or honor the commitments that she felt she needed to honor.  She was very worried that if she did not do all of those things, that she would not be able to be with her husband who was on the other side.  In our session, her mother said that she felt like she was "full of holes" in the year prior to her passing and had really worried about how God would feel about her.  She then became very serious in our session and said to her daughter, "God does not see holes!  God is pure love and acceptance and sees perfection because it is not about what we do, we can never do enough to be or FEEL perfect.  We just are perfection because we are the essence of our divinity and that cannot be anything but perfect."  When she crossed over to the other side she was able to leave all the fear, insecurities, and guilt that her physical being had collected and remember who she truly was, the true essence of DIVINITY.   Forgiveness of ourselves and others is the key to leaving all those unwanted emotions behind. 

She then talked about her passing and wanted to reassure her daughter that she had made the right decisions in her care.  She said that her daughter had really worried about whether or not to use a feeding tube and had chosen not to because it was her mother's wish.  It was a really hard decision for her to let nature take its course but it was truly the most unselfish thing to do.  Dianna said that this was true and that she had agonized over that decision.  She felt so much relief in knowing that her mother was pleased.  Her mother talked about the last few days before her passing and said that she was not completely "in her body."  She said, "There is a space between that world and this world where I was allowed to be.  I could hear everything that was said around me but I was not feeling the pain or discomfort of my body."  Dianna reported that her niece had actually seen her mother in spirit just prior to her passing.  In doing hospice, I have wondered where a spirit actually goes in the final days of the death process as they seem to be "one foot in this world and one foot in the other."  That was a beautiful explanation and a comforting thought for Dianna who had watched her mother suffer for so long.

Her mother then talked about  Dianna's dad who had been on the other side for a little while.  She said that she was so excited to see him again when she crossed over.  She showed me a picture of her and her husband dancing.  She was twirling around and standing up on her tip toes.  She wanted to make sure I noticed that she could do that and to relay that message to her daughter.  Dianna said that she was barely able to walk and was in constant pain.  It made her so happy to know that her mother was dancing again as that was something they loved to do together in the physical world.  Her father then said that he was so happy to have his sweet wife home again and that he had "BUILT HER A MANSION WITH NO WALLS."  He said on the other side there are no limiting thoughts, no limiting beliefs, just wide open possibilities.  Anything you want to experience, you can with only a thought.  He said he was going to dance with her mother in every room!  He said, "The only limits you have in this lifetime are the ones you put around you!  Take down the walls and live life to the fullest!"  Dianna laughed and said that she had always joked that "Dad had to go before mom because they had always lived in a small trailer with no room to dance and he was up there building her a great big mansion."  This such a fun session and Dianna said that she felt like an enormous burden had been lifted off of her.  Her parents were together and happy and that's all she needed to know to begin healing. 

Thank you Dianna for letting me share your story. Lots of love to you!

"Sweet Dreams Dad"

This was from a recent session.  I had a man privately message me and say, "I'm not sure what I believe in, I'm not sure if there is an afterlife but I would love to hear from my daughter."  I was beyond excited to talk to him.  I feel like this is the most exciting and rewarding part of this work...to answer that question.  Yes there is an afterlife, and YES you have loved ones around you.   I cannot convince anyone of that, but they can and it is beautiful to be a part of! 

His gorgeous daughter passed away about 3 years ago.  Before he came, he messaged me and said that he had been in combat over and over and could handle all of that but could not handle the death of his daughter.  It was devastating!  Not only was he heart broken because of the loss he felt but he also carried so much guilt in having to be away from her for so much of her life.  He hoped that she understood and that she wasn't mad at him. He honestly looked so tired and sad when he walked into my home.  He looked like he carried an enormous burden of grief on his shoulders and I could sense the loneliness in the thought that, "Nobody understands."

She came through immediately in our session and felt like a very strong spirit.  She rushed right in and said the words, "DADDY."  It reminded me of the soldiers coming home and their loved ones rushing to hug them.  She was so happy to have a chance to talk to him!  She said many things to him and talked to him about some specific times she has been with him.  She conveyed over and over that she understands now why he was away and said, "You did the hard things." 

She showed me that he had a really hard time sleeping and said that he never falls completely asleep.  She said P.T.S.D.  I asked him if that was true and he said that he never sleeps more then 1 1/2 hours at a time.  She asked him if he would like to have her help him sleep, he said yes.  She said, "Dad I will do anything to make your heart happy again and if sleep is what you need, I will help you."  She instructed him to ask for her to be there tonight and let himself feel her close to her.  She also said to believe and be grateful that she is there.  He said okay.  Then just before our session ended, she came through again and said, "SWEET DREAMS DAD." He walked out of my home looking very different.  He was peaceful and more relaxed. 

That night he messaged me and said that our session had helped and that he would try to feel her close that night, he would let me know how it worked.  Then next morning me messaged me and said, "So, I asked her to be with me, I don't remember my dreams but I did sleep 9 hours straight!  I don't remember the last time I even slept 3!"  She gave him the much needed peace and comfort to be able to have at least one good night of sleep.

Our loved ones can help us with anything we need in our lives, even sleep.  I have that come up a lot in sessions.  They say that they meet us in our dreams, or they kiss us goodnight.  They often say that they stay with people and give them peace.  Sleep is a time where we slow our minds and bodies down to a point where we can actually recognize and feel there presence.  It seems to be a very hard time for people who are grieving as they actually allow themselves to think about the loss but it can be a very special experience as well.  Try welcoming and being in gratitude for that person being near you and ask for the comfort you are in need of.  They will do whatever they can to make our hearts happy again!  

Thank you my friend for letting me share your story.  Your journey is inspiring!

 

"Not a Moment Lost"

This was from a session just the other day.  I was visiting with a sweet lady who had lost a grandson to a tragic accident about 10 years ago.  The little boy was about 2 years old at the time and they lived in a very rural area of Wyoming.  He was very curious and the family worried about him getting into the road so they decided to build a fence around the property.  They had the holes dug for the posts in the yard when the little boy went missing.  They looked and looked for him and finally found him in one of the holes with his head facing down and his little feet at the top.  They pulled him out and tried desperately to resuscitate him but he was gone.  As you can imagine, this family has been absolutely devastated.  The mother and father became so lost in the grief and ended up divorcing.  This sweet grandmother whom I was visiting with said, "I would do anything to take my son's pain away.  He is just not the same man he was and I don't know if he ever will be again."

This little grandson came through in such a sweet, happy, full of life way!  He didn't feel like a little boy to me though, he felt like a wise young man.  This is very common when young children pass away.  I rarely feel them the same age.  He had so many messages for his family and was so comforting to his grandmother.  He talked about his dad a lot and validated his presence in all of their lives. 

As our session was coming to an end he said something to me that I will never forget.  The picture that came to my mind was so beautiful, I actually had a hard time describing it as I felt his emotion.  He said, "We can pick up right where we left off.  NOT A MOMENT LOST."  I then saw an image, a replay of the whole scene but this time it ended differently, his dad was able to pull him up out of that hole, scoop him up in his arms and love his perfectly healthy, perfectly ALIVE little boy.  They were truly able to begin again.  I saw his father collapse to the ground with this little boy in his arms and smother him with kisses.  I heard, "Thank you, Thank you, Thank you for my son!" 

I have always heard that when children pass away the parents will have the opportunity to raise them on the other side.  I wondered how this would work as they always come as young adults.  In recent sessions, I have had this come up a lot and I have come to the conclusion that we can be whatever we need to be or have whatever we need to have to be able to heal.  Whatever tragedies we have endured in this life time will be rewarded in equal or greater measure in this life or the life to come.  This work has opened my eyes to the many people suffering deeply and usually quietly.  My prayer is that those who have suffered the loss of a child will know how much love and support they have on this side and the other and know that the healing will come in exactly the way they need it.  I can't even imagine the depths of this pain.  May God bless your hearts to be comforted and know that your little angels are always with you!

"All I Needed Was My Baby"

This was from a session I did today for a lady named Carla.  Her session was so much fun and she was able to receive messages from a lot of her family members.  One part of this session really stood out to me and I wanted to share.

Carla recently had a very close friend pass away unexpectedly.  She said that her passing was really hard for her and that this friend and her had a very close bond and had been friends since they were little girls.  I felt her gratitude and love for Carla and said that she "Had always been such a great friend and that they understood each other."  This friend had suffered with depression for most of her adult life and said that Carla was always there for her whether they were laughing or crying.

I then saw a picture of her friend with a baby.  It was a little boy.  Carla reported that her friend's baby had died of S.I.D.S. during the night when he was only 8 months old.  I could feel the heartbreak that this mom felt and she said  that she was never able to sleep well again.  She just could not get over the guilt she had over sleeping while her baby passed away.  She was never able to heal from this experience in this life.

I then saw a picture of a beautiful garden with the greenest grass and flowers everywhere.  It was so clean and organized with soft music playing.  There was a small stream with a gazebo next to it.  It was bright white with windows all around it.  This sweet friend showed me that she was inside alone with her baby.  She said, "I can finally sleep."  She was lying there holding her baby tightly in her arms with her eyes closed, savoring every moment with him.  I sensed that they were totally alone and that they had all the time in the world to enjoy each other.  Everything felt peaceful and perfect.  She then said, "On this side they let you have whatever it is you need to be able to heal,  ALL I NEEDED WAS MY BABY."

What a loving God to know our needs and to heal our pains in exactly the ways that we need.

"Make Sure the Music Is Loud"

I love this story!  It made me laugh and cry all at the same time.  This was for a sweet lady named Lacy.  Her niece had passed away after a long time battle with a brain tumor and even though  her passing was somewhat expected, it was devastating to her family.

Immediately after we started the session, which included Lacy and her children, the niece came forward.  She literally felt like she bounced into the room!  Her spirit felt so light and and happy and FREE!  She went right to Lacy's daughter who had just turned 16 and had gotten her learner's permit.  The niece, who's name was Ashly, said, "I am so happy for you to drive!!  She kept saying it..."You're so lucky!!  She showed me a picture in my mind of this girl driving down the road and Ashly sitting next to her in the car.  She said, "I want to go with you but the music HAS to be LOUD!  Again she said, "Please turn the music up."  Then she showed me a picture of her rolling the window down and she said, "Make sure the window is down!"   She was so funny and spunky, I was surprised to see that Lacy was crying.  I asked her what this meant to her and she said that Ashly was diagnosed with a brain tumor when she was very young.  She had lived most of her life with horrible headaches.  She was not able to tolerate any loud noises and could not stand to have the music loud.  Also the window being open in the car would cause pain so she wasn't able to enjoy that either.  Ashly had looked so forward to getting her driver's license but due to her limited vision and seizures, she was told just weeks before her passing that she would not be able to drive.  This absolutely crushed her!  Being able to drive meant freedom to her and now that was being taken as well.  She impressed upon me her overwhelming joy and gratitude that although her freedom came in a different way...she was finally free of all the pain she had suffered in the physical world.  She was now able to enjoy all those things she had missed through her loved ones still here.

How many times have you had the thought of a loved one and felt that they were near you?  These are not just thoughts!  They are always near and just a thought away.  Pay attention to how you feel when you think of them.  Sometimes people will see something that reminds them of their loved one or smell what they smelled like.  These are all ways that they show they are still here.  They long to be recognized and want you to know you are being protected and guided.  The more you recognize and give gratitude for these signs, the more you will receive them.  Enjoy yourself!  Laugh and feel gratitude that you can enjoy even the little things like loud music and open windows.  You never know who is experiencing that feeling with you!

"Thank You For Caring For My Little Butterfly"

This is another hospice story I would like to share.  It happened about four years ago.  I was doing an on-call shift and received a call that a lady was near passing and that the family was having a hard time getting her comfortable.  I had not met this patient or family before so on my drive to their house, I called to see if I could triage the situation before I got there.  This poor lady's daughter was panicked as I tried to instruct her on measures she could take to calm her mother down so I assured her that I would be there soon.  When I arrived, she was having  a lot of pain and anxiety so I gave her some medications and took some other measures to help get her comfortable.  I spent quite a bit of time instructing and educating them on how to care for their mother at this point in her journey.  The patient was able to settle down and seemed to be very comfortable.   

I started to walk out of their house and felt a rush of peace come over me.  I looked up and just out of the corner of my eye I saw a man standing there waiting.  He was all dressed up in a suit with a derby hat on.  He had his hands folded over his stomach and he was actually standing across the street.  I thought that was sweet and that it must be a family member of this patient's waiting to greet her.  As I climbed in my car, I could feel almost like a cool breeze brush past me and I felt this man sit next to me.  He told me that he was her husband and that he was waiting for her to be ready.  He then said, "Thank you for taking care of my little butterfly."

The next day, I talked to our hospice chaplain who relayed the message to the family.  They were very appreciative and said that they had started dating at a very young age and he had always called her his "little butterfly."

One thing I have learned and can attest to through my work in hospice is that nobody dies alone.  It's very common for people to start seeing their loved ones in the weeks leading up to their passing.  It has been such an amazing experience to feel the love that is there to welcome our loved ones back home.  I have had the experience on a few occasions to do sessions for patients and families just before passing.  It is amazing and so comforting for the family to know who will be accompanying their loved ones in crossing to the other side.  

"I Am Knocking On Your Door"

"This story came from a session I did a few weeks ago.  I was meeting with a family and the mother of this family felt very inspired to bring her friend along.  Her friend's name was Jackie.  I didn't know but Jackie had lost her mother a couple of years prior to this and her heart break was still so deep.  As I was giving messages to this family, I could feel this urgency of a woman pulling my attention to Jackie.  This sweet mama was not missing an opportunity to communicate with her daughter!

I told Jackie that I could feel a woman with her....she told me she was "best friend"  "mom,"  Jackie just broke down.  She said it was her mom and she was her best friend and she was so lost without her!  Her mother was a great communicator and told her so many beautiful messages.  She told her that she was very proud of her for a big accomplishment she had made in the past year, "something she had worked very hard for."  She said that it was something that bettered herself and made her feel more confident.  Jackie said that her mother had always struggled with her weight and that she herself had also but was able to lose seventy pounds over the past year.  Her mom told her she could never figure that out in the physical world but that she had been able to help her in that endeavor from the other side. 

As I was giving Jackie these messages, I kept seeing this picture in my mind of a woman knocking on the door.  It kept getting louder and I suddenly heard her say, "I am knocking on your door."  I asked Jackie if this meant anything to her and she gasped and started sobbing.  She said that over the past year, she had heard literal knocking on the door of her home.  She said, "I thought I was going crazy because know one else could hear it.!"  Her mother then told me that she was knocking on the door of her heart as well because since her passing, Jackie's world had became sad, and darker.  I saw in image in my mind of a house that felt empty and abandoned.  Jackie's mother said, "please let me come back in.  That is not ME in the house or in your heart.  I am fun and happy and I want to feel your home and your heart with sunshine.  Please open the door and let the REAL ME come back in."  I saw a look of relief come over Jackie and I explained to her that her mother did not want her memory associated with pain in any way, which is so understandable!  Can you imagine having your child hurt and miss you every time they thought of you?  They mourn with us and grieve along with us.  They comfort our pain and dry our tears but there comes a time when they ask, "Please let ME come back in."  I have many sessions where they say that they can progress quicker in their own development when they know we are okay. 

So as hard as it is....give yourself time to grieve, allow that sadness and feel those emotions.  But know that by recognizing your loved one's presence and being able to feel when they are near or recognize the way that they communicate with you, you can start a new relationship.  You can feel their companionship whenever you need it.  They are just a thought away!  Honor them in the love you feel for them and the great memories you have with them.  That is what they desire and they in no way feel that you are leaving them behind if you don't hurt for them.  The ultimate goal of the universe is love and healing and every experience we have is to bring us closer to that.  Open the door, let them them come in, and let the healing begin.

One more sweet part to this story.  I saw her mom holding a little boy and told Jackie this.  She said that she had lost a baby at birth....who happened to be a little boy.  Her mom was holding him and caring for him until the time that Jackie could.  Love to you "Jackie" and may you let the healing light of your mother and God's love heal your heart!

"Im So Glad I Kept Trying for You!"

This was from a session I did last week for an amazing woman named Jennifer.  I  wasn't aware at the time but she was coming to me after three miscarriages she had suffered over the past year or so.

Jennifer was able to receive many healing messages and some very specific instructions and guidance for some big decisions she was making.  As I was giving her these messages, I kept seeing an image in my mind of two little lights and then a small boy.  I asked her if that made sense to her and she told me that she had lost three babies.  It appeared to me that the first two were not formed in the usual way, they looked like bright lights.  As I tuned into the message, they told me that the were never meant to come her to earth and obtain a body but had been instrumental in preparing her emotionally, physically, and spiritually for the next ones to come.  I then felt the little boy come forward.  He was a very special, very powerful spirit who radiated love.  I could feel his intense connection to his mother.  He validated to her that she did feel an enormous loss with that miscarriage partly because she was further along in the pregnancy, but also because they were closely bonded even before this earthly experience.  Jennifer was very emotional and agreed that this had been one of the hardest things she had been through.  She felt devastated and couldn't understand why she felt so strongly that she should  have another baby if they weren't allowed to stay.

I then saw this sweet little boy look to his left and point to another little boy.  They both smiled and I felt that he was her unborn child who was preparing to come as soon as she was completely ready.  He explained that through each miscarriage, her heart was broken a little more.  Finally with the last one, she was broken at the deepest level.  She was desperate and pleading for some peace and understanding.  In this process she was humbled, softened, and prepared spiritually to receive this amazing blessing.  Sometimes we are allowed to hurt at our deepest levels to show us where we still need to heal.  If we allow ourselves to feel the pain and process the emotions, we can start to let go of those emotions.   Ask for divine guidance and  love to fill your soul and replace the hurt with healing!

Jennifer told me after the session that she had a dream previous to our meeting where she was spinning a little boy around in circles on the grass. She said she looked at him and said, "I'm so glad I didn't stop trying for you!"  What a beautiful message of hope for her that even though she had suffered so much loss, her baby boy was on his way and that God has a purpose for everything!  Thank you Jennifer for letting me share your story.  Your journey has been inspiring!  Love you.