This came from a session I did a couple of weeks ago. This was for a young woman who's sister had passed away after a long battle with depression and anxiety. She had a very beautiful message to give her sister who came to meet with me and it has stuck in my mind.
Her sister showed me a picture of all of the earthly tasks that we have to deal with. Even menial tasks such as laundry, dishes, driving kids around...every little thing that we do. She showed me that it was all orchestrated and directed by loved ones working on the other side. There were so many people guiding and directing our lives and assisting in everything we do no matter how small. She said that "If you only knew how much help you have on the other side, you would never be afraid again."
As I saw this "movie" play out in my mind, I saw that these angels and spirits assisting us were all posed and ready to help with whatever we needed but they were looking to us to initiate the process. There is a certain amount of energy that we are required to invest before assistance is allowed as they can not interfere with free will. Our investment comes in the form of being humble enough to ask for help, having faith in the knowledge that we will be assisted in what we need, and in giving service to others. The whole universe is about balance and maintaining an even energy exchange.
This is something that many of us probably struggle with from time to time...you know the times when you give and give and you start to feel depleted. It is so important to create balance in your own life and give your own mind, body, and spirit the attention it deserves. Also, first and foremost, love yourself! Take ten minutes every day to focus on the love and gratitude you have for this gift of life. Your thoughts and your conversations with yourself will change which will, in turn, create a more peaceful, loving, and worry-free existence around you. Take comfort in knowing that you are completely surrounded, supported and loved in a way that you cannot even imagine! Help is just a prayer and show of faith away...just take the leap and believe that your angels are on their way!
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Sunday, April 27, 2014
"How Did This All Start?"
"How did you know you had this gift?" I get asked this question at least once a day so I will answer in the best way that I can. I guess it all really started when I was a little girl. According to my mother, I started talking at a very young age (surprise surprise!) and would talk to people in my room. I would tell her all the time that I just couldn't decide if I was going to "stay here or go back." This of course terrified my mom, but she says that she knew she could not influence my decision. Then one day I came to her and told her that I decided to stay and she said I never talked about going back again. I can remember many times in my life that spirit was very strong..good and bad. I learned at a very young age that there definitely is a light and a dark side and I learned that light always trumps the dark. I learned to call on God and trust that we can always receive guidance and the answers we need. (I just chose on quite a few occasions to ignore those answers and learn lessons the hard way.)
About four years ago, I started feeling an intense "awakening." I felt that I was being called to do more, to go deeper and develop my spirituality. I started meditating more often and about a month into this process, I had a very vivid dream. I was standing at the beginning of two paths. As I was trying to decide what path to start walking down, I looked up and saw a "gift" an actual wrapped up present, being handed to me. The gift was placed in my hands and it felt really heavy. I remember thinking that I wasn't sure if I wanted to open it and was trying to decide when I heard these words that resonated through my soul. "I know its heavy and hard to carry but I will hold you up." I then felt like a loving blanket of peace was wrapped around me and stayed with me until morning.
I thought this was the coolest dream ever!! I wrote about it, I pondered what it meant...I meditated about it....I truly "wrestled with God to find the answer to what this dream meant. After a few months, I finally I let it go and just went about my life continuing to meditate every day. Every day my meditations became deeper and more meaningful. I started receiving answers to my questions and started to understand what inspiration felt like. Then one day I was doing my usual meditation when I could feel my grandpa sitting there next to me. He had passed about nine years before but I always felt a special bond with him. I acknowledged his presence and said (in my mind) that I was happy he was there. As soon as I said those words, I literally felt a "portal" open and I could "feel" all the words that he was saying to me. We had a full on conversation but without a spoken word. It was a soul to soul conversation just as plain as any I have ever had with another person. When he was finished, I felt him fade away and I felt my nephew come forward and begin speaking. He had been on the other side for a few years. He told me many things which I wrote down and gave to my brother at a later date. One thing he said was that his parents needed to sell their car because it had transmission problems.
I immediately called my mom and told her that "my cheese has slid off my cracker!" I am crazy I told her. I was actually in tears but also elated by this experience. My mother was so supportive and reassured me that this was a special experience that I should just be grateful for it. I then called my brother and said, very timidly, "So.....is your car working okay?" His answer was, "No its in the shop, we think something is wrong with the transmission." I was so relieved! Thank goodness my nephew gave me something that I could validate!
Once this portal opened, it never closed. It has been quite a journey in learning balance. I often say I feel like I have one foot in one world and another here and that can be difficult to maintain at times. This "gift" can feel heavy as I am in a constant place to receive judgment but I have and always will be "held up." If it comforts and soothes even one hurting soul, then it is worth it! I am grateful to serve as an instrument as we all are! So my lesson in this is..if you are not sure, go deep, ask God what your path is and where you can best serve as an instrument of healing because it takes us all, and that is why we are here. We are here to love, encourage, and lift up our fellow men. We all play a different and unique tune that when played together, creates the most beautiful song. It is time to let the music play!
About four years ago, I started feeling an intense "awakening." I felt that I was being called to do more, to go deeper and develop my spirituality. I started meditating more often and about a month into this process, I had a very vivid dream. I was standing at the beginning of two paths. As I was trying to decide what path to start walking down, I looked up and saw a "gift" an actual wrapped up present, being handed to me. The gift was placed in my hands and it felt really heavy. I remember thinking that I wasn't sure if I wanted to open it and was trying to decide when I heard these words that resonated through my soul. "I know its heavy and hard to carry but I will hold you up." I then felt like a loving blanket of peace was wrapped around me and stayed with me until morning.
I thought this was the coolest dream ever!! I wrote about it, I pondered what it meant...I meditated about it....I truly "wrestled with God to find the answer to what this dream meant. After a few months, I finally I let it go and just went about my life continuing to meditate every day. Every day my meditations became deeper and more meaningful. I started receiving answers to my questions and started to understand what inspiration felt like. Then one day I was doing my usual meditation when I could feel my grandpa sitting there next to me. He had passed about nine years before but I always felt a special bond with him. I acknowledged his presence and said (in my mind) that I was happy he was there. As soon as I said those words, I literally felt a "portal" open and I could "feel" all the words that he was saying to me. We had a full on conversation but without a spoken word. It was a soul to soul conversation just as plain as any I have ever had with another person. When he was finished, I felt him fade away and I felt my nephew come forward and begin speaking. He had been on the other side for a few years. He told me many things which I wrote down and gave to my brother at a later date. One thing he said was that his parents needed to sell their car because it had transmission problems.
I immediately called my mom and told her that "my cheese has slid off my cracker!" I am crazy I told her. I was actually in tears but also elated by this experience. My mother was so supportive and reassured me that this was a special experience that I should just be grateful for it. I then called my brother and said, very timidly, "So.....is your car working okay?" His answer was, "No its in the shop, we think something is wrong with the transmission." I was so relieved! Thank goodness my nephew gave me something that I could validate!
Once this portal opened, it never closed. It has been quite a journey in learning balance. I often say I feel like I have one foot in one world and another here and that can be difficult to maintain at times. This "gift" can feel heavy as I am in a constant place to receive judgment but I have and always will be "held up." If it comforts and soothes even one hurting soul, then it is worth it! I am grateful to serve as an instrument as we all are! So my lesson in this is..if you are not sure, go deep, ask God what your path is and where you can best serve as an instrument of healing because it takes us all, and that is why we are here. We are here to love, encourage, and lift up our fellow men. We all play a different and unique tune that when played together, creates the most beautiful song. It is time to let the music play!
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
"A Twenty Year Promise"
Okay, any of you who know me know that I have a hard time staying serious for very long. I have posted some very sacred spiritual stories but I think its time to "lighten" things up a bit. This was from a session a few years ago. I receive messages and images that usually do not make sense to me but make sense to the person receiving it. I try very hard to relay the information exactly how I see it and not interpret the meaning of the message. That being said ....I could never have interpreted the meaning of this one!
This was a session for a young man named Mark. His very close friend, David had passed away unexpectedly a few years prior to our session. It had been very hard to deal with as they had grown up together and were more like brothers then friends. Very early into the session I started seeing an image of fire. It was as though I was viewing this fire through David's eyes. It was all different colors and shapes and was more vibrant then any fire I had ever seen. I heard the words..."I have never seen colors like that in a fire." I then heard the words, "lets do it again but not the same way." I relayed this message to Mark. He was shocked and was laughing hysterically! He told me a story of him and David being 16 years old and trying Acid. They went camping and made a fire. He remembered that the fire was the strangest they had ever seen and said that they had stared at it for hours. At that time they made a pact to return in 20 years and do this again.
Mark was 36 years old which would mean that this was would be 20 years. Mark said that he had actually thought about this agreement and had worried about how he could honor David without actually doing Acid. David let him off the hook by saying, "lets do it again but not the same way." Mark was relieved to say the least!
It's always interesting to me, when I am doing this, we spend nearly as much time laughing as we do crying! I believe that laughter is never lost and is so important whether you are in the spirit world or in the physical world. "Do not take life so seriously" is a message I hear in almost every session! Lighten up, live life in gratitude and laugh....like really deep down belly laugh everyday! Your spirit will thank you!
This was a session for a young man named Mark. His very close friend, David had passed away unexpectedly a few years prior to our session. It had been very hard to deal with as they had grown up together and were more like brothers then friends. Very early into the session I started seeing an image of fire. It was as though I was viewing this fire through David's eyes. It was all different colors and shapes and was more vibrant then any fire I had ever seen. I heard the words..."I have never seen colors like that in a fire." I then heard the words, "lets do it again but not the same way." I relayed this message to Mark. He was shocked and was laughing hysterically! He told me a story of him and David being 16 years old and trying Acid. They went camping and made a fire. He remembered that the fire was the strangest they had ever seen and said that they had stared at it for hours. At that time they made a pact to return in 20 years and do this again.
Mark was 36 years old which would mean that this was would be 20 years. Mark said that he had actually thought about this agreement and had worried about how he could honor David without actually doing Acid. David let him off the hook by saying, "lets do it again but not the same way." Mark was relieved to say the least!
It's always interesting to me, when I am doing this, we spend nearly as much time laughing as we do crying! I believe that laughter is never lost and is so important whether you are in the spirit world or in the physical world. "Do not take life so seriously" is a message I hear in almost every session! Lighten up, live life in gratitude and laugh....like really deep down belly laugh everyday! Your spirit will thank you!
"All We Have To Do Is Ask"
This was a message that came from a session I did just yesterday. I was meeting with a sweet young lady by the name of Tiffany. Her sister just recently passed away and she was devastated! She felt that her world had completely stopped!
Her sister came through and communicated so many beautiful and very detailed messages but one thing she said really represented the love and personal interaction she was able to give her sister here in the physical world. Her sister told me that Tiffany had a really hard night a few nights ago and showed me an image of her actually curled up in her bed sobbing. I felt her despair and could hear the words, "I can't do this anymore...I just need some sleep." I felt her asking for her sister to give her some comfort. I then saw an image of Tiffany's sister lying next to her and holding her head on her chest. I saw her stroking her hair and holding her all through the night. I relayed the message to Tiffany, she broke down in tears and said that happened just the other night. She was so tired and overwhelmed and just asked for some help. She said she suddenly felt relaxed and tired and was able to rest clear through the night. She said that when she woke up, she felt so much better!
Our loved ones are intermingled in our lives more then we could ever imagine and they jump at the chance to comfort our broken hearts. All we have to do is ask.
Her sister came through and communicated so many beautiful and very detailed messages but one thing she said really represented the love and personal interaction she was able to give her sister here in the physical world. Her sister told me that Tiffany had a really hard night a few nights ago and showed me an image of her actually curled up in her bed sobbing. I felt her despair and could hear the words, "I can't do this anymore...I just need some sleep." I felt her asking for her sister to give her some comfort. I then saw an image of Tiffany's sister lying next to her and holding her head on her chest. I saw her stroking her hair and holding her all through the night. I relayed the message to Tiffany, she broke down in tears and said that happened just the other night. She was so tired and overwhelmed and just asked for some help. She said she suddenly felt relaxed and tired and was able to rest clear through the night. She said that when she woke up, she felt so much better!
Our loved ones are intermingled in our lives more then we could ever imagine and they jump at the chance to comfort our broken hearts. All we have to do is ask.
Monday, April 21, 2014
"Please tell my daughter before I go"
This is one story that I have been so excited to tell. It is very tender and dear to my heart because of the affect that it had on this family's as well as my own faith.
This was a couple of years ago. I was working for a hospice company where we would rotate the on call shifts. Getting up in the middle of the night to attend a death call was not always looked forward to..lets be honest! One particular on call night, I was sleeping soundly when I was suddenly awoken by the most peaceful feeling of someone standing next to me....(I know it sounds scary to be awoken by a spirit but trust me this was so peaceful!) I could feel that it was a man and I didn't want to wake because it felt so good to be in his presence. I kept my eyes closed and asked him why he was here. I immediately saw an image in my mind of this man lying sick in a bed. I saw his spirit start to ascend from his body. It was the strangest thing...he was floating up backwards and continued to watch his body as he was leaving. As he got near the ceiling I could feel a panic rising in him. He suddenly reached behind and "braced" himself against the ceiling. He started to say "wait one more thing before I go." I suddenly saw the word ABSENCE in my mind. I could feel his heartbreak and saw an image of his daughter. He said "Please tell my daughter I am sorry for my absence." I then saw images of this man's life. I saw him as a young child and the abandonment and abuse that he had suffered. He let me know that he was truly unable to be in his daughter's life due to his own emotional pain.
As he said these words I saw him turn around and face upward. I then saw and felt the most beautiful, comforting loving acceptance surround this man and take him to the light. I had the most distinct feeling that he was literally "wrapped" up in the Saviors love. It looked to me like a soft, white, blanket made of lamb's wool that enveloped him completely. As soon as that blanket was placed around him, I felt him sigh and let go of all fear and insecurities. I felt him rest!
About 5 minutes later, I received a phone call that a male patient had passed away. As I arrived there, I was curious about this man and his life. The staff all said the same thing. They had such a respect and love for this man and said that he was very kind and gentle. They reported that he had suffered from mental illness and had lived most of his adult life as a recluse in the mountains...missing out on most of his daughter's life. They said that he kept to himself in the care center but was always so appreciative of staff. The words, "the least of these." kept coming to my mind. I was so touched by his humility and his urgency to let his daughter know, even in his passing, that he loved her and would have been there with her if he could have. So many years he suffered with his own pain and through the Savior he was finally set free.
I was able to tell our social worker who had been in contact with his daughter about this experience. His daughter was very grateful and very emotional about it. She said that she was finally able to have some closure.
This experience changed my relationship with the Savior in that I KNEW he represented pure healing and love. I had seen it and felt it. This will always be a "treasured experience" in my hospice career.
This was a couple of years ago. I was working for a hospice company where we would rotate the on call shifts. Getting up in the middle of the night to attend a death call was not always looked forward to..lets be honest! One particular on call night, I was sleeping soundly when I was suddenly awoken by the most peaceful feeling of someone standing next to me....(I know it sounds scary to be awoken by a spirit but trust me this was so peaceful!) I could feel that it was a man and I didn't want to wake because it felt so good to be in his presence. I kept my eyes closed and asked him why he was here. I immediately saw an image in my mind of this man lying sick in a bed. I saw his spirit start to ascend from his body. It was the strangest thing...he was floating up backwards and continued to watch his body as he was leaving. As he got near the ceiling I could feel a panic rising in him. He suddenly reached behind and "braced" himself against the ceiling. He started to say "wait one more thing before I go." I suddenly saw the word ABSENCE in my mind. I could feel his heartbreak and saw an image of his daughter. He said "Please tell my daughter I am sorry for my absence." I then saw images of this man's life. I saw him as a young child and the abandonment and abuse that he had suffered. He let me know that he was truly unable to be in his daughter's life due to his own emotional pain.
As he said these words I saw him turn around and face upward. I then saw and felt the most beautiful, comforting loving acceptance surround this man and take him to the light. I had the most distinct feeling that he was literally "wrapped" up in the Saviors love. It looked to me like a soft, white, blanket made of lamb's wool that enveloped him completely. As soon as that blanket was placed around him, I felt him sigh and let go of all fear and insecurities. I felt him rest!
About 5 minutes later, I received a phone call that a male patient had passed away. As I arrived there, I was curious about this man and his life. The staff all said the same thing. They had such a respect and love for this man and said that he was very kind and gentle. They reported that he had suffered from mental illness and had lived most of his adult life as a recluse in the mountains...missing out on most of his daughter's life. They said that he kept to himself in the care center but was always so appreciative of staff. The words, "the least of these." kept coming to my mind. I was so touched by his humility and his urgency to let his daughter know, even in his passing, that he loved her and would have been there with her if he could have. So many years he suffered with his own pain and through the Savior he was finally set free.
I was able to tell our social worker who had been in contact with his daughter about this experience. His daughter was very grateful and very emotional about it. She said that she was finally able to have some closure.
This experience changed my relationship with the Savior in that I KNEW he represented pure healing and love. I had seen it and felt it. This will always be a "treasured experience" in my hospice career.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
"Carrying Burdens"
I had the opportunity to meet with a darling lady by the name of Lorna. She had the cutest, bubbliest personality! She had a very interesting session but one part in particular has stuck with me and I decided to share it because I think this is a struggle most people deal with at one time or another.
She was concerned about her son. As soon as she said those words, I saw an image in my mind of her dragging this great big bag behind her. It was like Santa's toy sack with a drawstring around the opening. It was huge and her son was in it. I felt like he couldn't breath and the more that she pulled that sack the tighter the drawstring got. She was pulling just as hard as she could and was not able to budge that sack.
Lorna's father passed away when she was 18 years old. This was incredibly hard on her and she was so excited to hear from him. He told her to "Put the bag down, just drop the rope and sit down." She looked surprised to hear this and exlained that her son was disabled with work induced emphysema and literally could not breath. He had been coming to her for years asking for support. She had done everything she could to help him, as a mother does, but the time was now to let him "figure out how to get out of the bag." Her father assured her that the "drawstring would become looser and he would be able to manage on his own." He also asked her to trust. Trust in God, trust in angels, and trust in the family members around him...they could handle this!
How many times do we try to carry other people's burdens, even our own become too heavy at times. It's a lesson in letting go and trusting which is an offering of faith when we believe in our loved ones passed. They are there to assist us and teach us the lessons we asked to learn. We just have to learn to stay out of their way and believe that everything will always be okay.
She was concerned about her son. As soon as she said those words, I saw an image in my mind of her dragging this great big bag behind her. It was like Santa's toy sack with a drawstring around the opening. It was huge and her son was in it. I felt like he couldn't breath and the more that she pulled that sack the tighter the drawstring got. She was pulling just as hard as she could and was not able to budge that sack.
Lorna's father passed away when she was 18 years old. This was incredibly hard on her and she was so excited to hear from him. He told her to "Put the bag down, just drop the rope and sit down." She looked surprised to hear this and exlained that her son was disabled with work induced emphysema and literally could not breath. He had been coming to her for years asking for support. She had done everything she could to help him, as a mother does, but the time was now to let him "figure out how to get out of the bag." Her father assured her that the "drawstring would become looser and he would be able to manage on his own." He also asked her to trust. Trust in God, trust in angels, and trust in the family members around him...they could handle this!
How many times do we try to carry other people's burdens, even our own become too heavy at times. It's a lesson in letting go and trusting which is an offering of faith when we believe in our loved ones passed. They are there to assist us and teach us the lessons we asked to learn. We just have to learn to stay out of their way and believe that everything will always be okay.
"Look at those orbs!"
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| My sweet friend Brandie the evening after four of her family members sent messages for her. We noticed later that there are four Orbs. My understanding is that orbs are a sign that your angels are present. What a comforting thought! |
Saturday, April 19, 2014
"I stand behind you"
I was able to meet with a beautiful lady today by the name of Gina. She came in a little apprehensive as many do. She told me that she had never visited a medium before and that she did not know what to expect. To be honest, I never know quite what to expect either! I always start with a short silent prayer that I have them do as well. I ask them to pray or meditate or whatever they need to do to tune out the outside world and bring the highest peace and love to our session. I also ask them to think about loved ones that they want to connect to as that brings them closer as well. I also say a prayer and ask that I may be an instrument of healing and that whatever messages this person may need will come through. I also pray for protection and dedicate the session to the "highest light" and only allow love in the room.
We both did this and she relaxed. Not too long into the session, I felt her grandfather step forward. He felt like a GIANT of a spirit. He was so loving and kind and funny! (That is one of my favorite things about spirit...they never lose their personalities.) I often see images in my mind as spirit communicates, it looks like a movie. The image her grandfather showed me was of her as a little girl spinning her around wearing beautiful dresses. I heard loud Hispanic music playing and saw an image of him dancing with her. I saw them fishing together and sharing so many happy special moments together. I saw an image of him making tortillas and her watching him. He urged her to continue the traditions she was taught and share her culture with her children. He also asked her to speak more Spanish. All of these suggestions, she said she had really been thinking about over the past year.
I then saw an image of her in a room all alone, crying and looking out the window. It was raining hard and she was wearing black. I could feel her sadness and loneliness as she looked out the window. I sensed that in that moment she was making a very difficult decision. I sensed her asking for her grandpa's help. I explained this picture to her and she started to cry. I then saw an image of her grandpa standing behind her, holding her up, wrapping his arms around her, and drying her tears. He very gently held her face on each side and repeatedly turned her face and eyes upward to "look at the light." He said to me that he has always been there in all of her darkest times and he has always stood behind her. He stood behind to hold her up, never in front to block her path or sway her decisions but behind to let the light shine down on her. Each time she looked down, he gently reminded her to keep her faith and look up. She stated that she knew this to be true and now looking back...knows that he has always been there.
We both did this and she relaxed. Not too long into the session, I felt her grandfather step forward. He felt like a GIANT of a spirit. He was so loving and kind and funny! (That is one of my favorite things about spirit...they never lose their personalities.) I often see images in my mind as spirit communicates, it looks like a movie. The image her grandfather showed me was of her as a little girl spinning her around wearing beautiful dresses. I heard loud Hispanic music playing and saw an image of him dancing with her. I saw them fishing together and sharing so many happy special moments together. I saw an image of him making tortillas and her watching him. He urged her to continue the traditions she was taught and share her culture with her children. He also asked her to speak more Spanish. All of these suggestions, she said she had really been thinking about over the past year.
I then saw an image of her in a room all alone, crying and looking out the window. It was raining hard and she was wearing black. I could feel her sadness and loneliness as she looked out the window. I sensed that in that moment she was making a very difficult decision. I sensed her asking for her grandpa's help. I explained this picture to her and she started to cry. I then saw an image of her grandpa standing behind her, holding her up, wrapping his arms around her, and drying her tears. He very gently held her face on each side and repeatedly turned her face and eyes upward to "look at the light." He said to me that he has always been there in all of her darkest times and he has always stood behind her. He stood behind to hold her up, never in front to block her path or sway her decisions but behind to let the light shine down on her. Each time she looked down, he gently reminded her to keep her faith and look up. She stated that she knew this to be true and now looking back...knows that he has always been there.
"Meet me in my dreams"
I recently had the opportunity to meet with a young man by the name of Curtis. He was 13 years old and had just lost his dad to cancer. Needless to say, this poor little guy had been heartbroken! When he first came in, he kept his eyes lowered to the floor and was visibly so nervous!!
This meeting was special in the sense that I had actually had a dream about Curtis and his dad a few nights earlier. It was very vivid! I saw Curtis laying on the floor with his dad tickling and "roughing him up." He was laughing so hard and begging his dad to stop. His dad was also laughing so hard and was not letting up on him until he squirmed his way out and took off running with his cousin who I also saw laying next to him in this dream, I also remembered two other men standing behind Curtis talking and laughing. I had the distinct feeling that they were also relatives and that this was a family party. In the next room, I could see food on the table and orange and dark blue balloons tied to a chair. Following this dream, I could feel the presence of Curtis's father so strong asking me to help Curtis. I said that I would and planned on texting his mother the next morning. Before I even had a chance, She messaged me with another question. I told her of my dream and asked if Curtis could come see me. She said "heck yes!" She had wanted to ask but didn't want to bother me. Spirit always affirms from both sides which I am so thankful for!
So here I am meeting with Curtis...taking some time to help him relax and look up at me. I told him. "hey Curtis guess what...I had a dream about you and your dad last night." He said, "really? I dream about him too but I can never remember what I dream. I just know he is there." I asked him how that made him feel. He said it made him sad because he missed him so much! He started to cry. He looked up at me and I started to tell him what my dream was. As I started to tell him that I felt like it was a family party, his eyes lit up and got really excited. He said, " That is exactly what I dreamed last night! It was a family party and my cousin was there and my two uncles! There was food on the table and balloons." I had to keep my mouth from hitting the floor. I was so happy that he was able to have this confirmation that his dad does in fact visit him and actually spend time with him in his dreams.
His dad said to him, "I know that you are hurting son and I am so sorry! I know that you cannot be happy all of the time and I am not asking you to. But what if you can try to be happy at night, just when you go to bed. Maybe you can start looking forward to bedtime because you know I will always be there! Curtis lit up! He said "Yes I can do that." He says that he can feel his dad's presence every night.
I received a message from Curtis's mother the next morning saying that Curtis woke up and told her that he had been with his dad and was taken away with him in a dream last night. What a beautiful gift for a dad to be able to give his son even from the other side!
People on the other side vibrate at a much higher, much faster frequency then we do here. We can connect so much easier when we are peaceful, loving and HAPPY! Curtis's father gave him this lesson because he knew that in sadness, the connection was so much harder to make and harder to remember. By Curtis being excited and happy....his connection could be much stronger to his dad!
The message in this is that our loved ones are always near, always ready and willing to show up when we need them. Our job is to trust, to love and to remember their spirits in a peaceful loving state as much as possible! They want to show us that they are present and by being happy...it makes their job so much easier!! KEEP SMILING!! Love you all!
This meeting was special in the sense that I had actually had a dream about Curtis and his dad a few nights earlier. It was very vivid! I saw Curtis laying on the floor with his dad tickling and "roughing him up." He was laughing so hard and begging his dad to stop. His dad was also laughing so hard and was not letting up on him until he squirmed his way out and took off running with his cousin who I also saw laying next to him in this dream, I also remembered two other men standing behind Curtis talking and laughing. I had the distinct feeling that they were also relatives and that this was a family party. In the next room, I could see food on the table and orange and dark blue balloons tied to a chair. Following this dream, I could feel the presence of Curtis's father so strong asking me to help Curtis. I said that I would and planned on texting his mother the next morning. Before I even had a chance, She messaged me with another question. I told her of my dream and asked if Curtis could come see me. She said "heck yes!" She had wanted to ask but didn't want to bother me. Spirit always affirms from both sides which I am so thankful for!
So here I am meeting with Curtis...taking some time to help him relax and look up at me. I told him. "hey Curtis guess what...I had a dream about you and your dad last night." He said, "really? I dream about him too but I can never remember what I dream. I just know he is there." I asked him how that made him feel. He said it made him sad because he missed him so much! He started to cry. He looked up at me and I started to tell him what my dream was. As I started to tell him that I felt like it was a family party, his eyes lit up and got really excited. He said, " That is exactly what I dreamed last night! It was a family party and my cousin was there and my two uncles! There was food on the table and balloons." I had to keep my mouth from hitting the floor. I was so happy that he was able to have this confirmation that his dad does in fact visit him and actually spend time with him in his dreams.
His dad said to him, "I know that you are hurting son and I am so sorry! I know that you cannot be happy all of the time and I am not asking you to. But what if you can try to be happy at night, just when you go to bed. Maybe you can start looking forward to bedtime because you know I will always be there! Curtis lit up! He said "Yes I can do that." He says that he can feel his dad's presence every night.
I received a message from Curtis's mother the next morning saying that Curtis woke up and told her that he had been with his dad and was taken away with him in a dream last night. What a beautiful gift for a dad to be able to give his son even from the other side!
People on the other side vibrate at a much higher, much faster frequency then we do here. We can connect so much easier when we are peaceful, loving and HAPPY! Curtis's father gave him this lesson because he knew that in sadness, the connection was so much harder to make and harder to remember. By Curtis being excited and happy....his connection could be much stronger to his dad!
The message in this is that our loved ones are always near, always ready and willing to show up when we need them. Our job is to trust, to love and to remember their spirits in a peaceful loving state as much as possible! They want to show us that they are present and by being happy...it makes their job so much easier!! KEEP SMILING!! Love you all!
Friday, April 18, 2014
Moments of impact bring moments of clarity
Healing Connections
April 7th, 2014 is a day I will always remember and will forever be grateful for. It was my first full day of being 40 years old and as most "newly middle-aged" adults do, I had previously started to analyze my life and the direction I was heading.
I have been working as a hospice nurse full time and doing intuitive life coaching on the side.....very much on the side. So much on the side that I was beginning to push it out completely. This was not something I was even really conscious of, I just didn't feel that I had any energy left after my job and family. I had recently talked with my friend about using my gift of connecting to the other side. I told her that I would really like to use it more but just didn't see how I could transition. Sometime around March 24th, I was having lunch with my sweet friend Jen. Being the amazing friend that she is, she encouraged me and reminded me that it was important work and that the way would be provided. That night I decided to write out my intentions and hand it over to God. I was very specific and clear...I wrote that I wanted to live my life on purpose and bring healing to those who are suffering....I wanted to be able to do this full time as I felt it was my calling. I wrote that I was grateful for it and went on with my life without giving it a second thought.
The next two weeks were a whirlwind! I had seven patients in two weeks pass away which is a record for me. I had one in particular by the name of Doug who was especially dear to me. We had developed an unusually close bond in the time that I had cared for him and had shared some very deep, very real conversations. I always felt that he had a sense of protection over me and I felt like he was somewhat of a grandpa. I and everyone who cared for him adored him!! His death was unusually difficult for me, in part because the day before he passed, he had what is called, "terminal agitation. This is common for people who are near passing and is like a "fight or flight" response so to speak. Doug was getting close to passing and he fought with all he had to keep moving, to get up, to stay independent. He was unable to stand without falling so we had to stand at his bedside and hold him in bed. It was heartbreaking as he was not completely aware of what was going on, he just knew he had to continue to fight. I stood behind him for hours with my arms wrapped around his chest whispering in his ear that "you are ok, your family is all here and they are all happy for you to be able to go home. You get to go home soon." Doug finally relaxed and passed away that night with his sweet daughter at his side.
April 7th.....
That day was exhausting! I was physically, emotionally, and spiritually exhausted! I was driving down 90th South when I said to myself..."I don't know how much longer I can do this." I was sitting at a stoplight talking to a patient's wife on the phone when out of nowhere I was slammed from behind. The impact was so sudden it took me just a second to realize I had been hit when I looked up and was being pushed into the back of a semi in front of me. Needless to say I was shocked but felt like I was fine. I got out to find that the front end of my car was actually halfway under the semi trailer.
The accident was handled and I refused an ambulance ride but noticed as time went on that my back was really sore. I decided to go the E.R. just to make sure I was okay as I was actually working at the time of the accident. I was cleared of any fractures and made my way home. I was told by many that I must have guardian angels because I could have been injured so much worse. On the ride home, I said in my mind, "thank you to all who have protected me." No sooner did I speak those words did I feel the presence of Doug sitting next to me. I saw an image in my mind of him sitting in the seat behind me during the accident and wrapping his arms around my shoulders and chest like I had done to him. He held my tight and kept me safely held tight in my seat. I then heard the words "It always comes back to you." "It always comes back to you." "It always comes back to you."
In all the the sessions I have done for other people I have been so deeply touched by the messages and the protection we receive from the other side. I know I have been personally protected many times in my life but this was undeniably the most profound message yet.
At first glance, this seemed to be a tragedy, a set back, "an accident." I am seeing very clearly now that it has been an answer to my prayers. I have been able to reevaluate my goals and my purpose and remember what I agreed to do in this lifetime and that is to serve as an instrument for "healing connections." I appreciate this work more then I can tell you and even more appreciate all of you who have entrusted me to work as the medium between you and your loved ones. It is an honor and a privilege and I am sorry that I, in the past have put it on the back burner. This was truly a moment of impact that I will forever be grateful for. I am grateful to have been allowed to stay and serve God in the way that I agreed to. My promise to you is that I will not let another day go by without living my life on purpose.
From now on, I will be giving this work the attention that it deserves and will be clearing the "space" to provide healing connections. Please let me know if you know of anyone I can help. My number is 801-910-7591. You also can private message me if you would like more details. I am in the process of developing my web page so I will keep you all updated. Thank you all for your love and support.
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